Monday, November 24, 2003
Today..hari raya...and i'm not feelin well..havin a blood nose...cough..sigh...
called eli yesterdae...who's khalid?..or kamal?..or wateva his name is? sigh...
guess...they r juz frens...but then again....he may like her actualli...thats wat i tot...
usually..wat i think..always come true....soo...yeap....haf tis feeling tat...i wun b able to meet up wif her anymore..or anyone else i've known....
sigh....
Monday, November 24, 2003
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Went to bazaar geylang juz now...bought mt capal...alone....
my fren din go wif mi...juz as i predicted..who would ever go out wif mi...no one..
sometimes i wonder..why do i always search for people to be wif...why?...
and i also wonder..whats the use of a fone..if u cant contact her...no replies ...nothin...
useless...
i hate everyone...
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
If I could be a flower,
What would I be?
A black rose definitely,
Cos I'm needed when people are in need...
A black rose,
alone in the darkened room
no air, no water..
I'm chocking
I need some sunlight...
I need some care...
I need someone
Just to be there...
Not when they are in need..
when someone's dead
But a black rose can never change its colours.
It can nither be red nor white,
It can neither be needed
to show love or care...
All it shows...
is just pain and suffering....
NuZ
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Today, start of post exams day.....and my life...back to normal....real normal..
no replies from smses that i sent...dunno whether i'm meeting my fren tomorrow...
if my instincts are true...think she's back to her ex...
Anyways...juz haf to go out alone...again...sigh...
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Friday, November 14, 2003
todae..finished 2 papers..2 more to go..
my anglefish laid eggs yesterdae!
todae oredi hatched..nice..cool...i haf bred guppies, fightin fish n now angelfish!
wah!!!!
read my fren's blog, she was sooo upset...she asked her best fren wat's e meaning of love..
wanna noe wats love? its difficult to explain. our parents gettin married n hang on to each other for soo many years, even with some quarrelin, tats love..2 parties having the same feeling for each other, caring and encouraging, no matter how they look...thats love...love..there shouldnt be any judging of looks, size..when a gal saes he likes a guy coz he's cute..thats not love..thats infatuation...a crush....when a guy saes he likes a gal coz she's pretty, sweet looking, thats not love also..
love comes from the heart...
wish...wish i can help her..
she's giving up soo soon..she's only 18...she has many years ahead of her...
be strong...and everythin will b ok...
Friday, November 14, 2003
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
feel sick..juz recovered from a fever and vomitting...but carried on fasting...
semalam my grandad was sent to the hospital, had breathing difficulties. read my fren's blog, her date din work out good...n i was wondering..y din he sent her back home? tot guys r supposed to do tat. it's a gentleman thingy rite?
well..mayb unless e date is reallie boring..anyways..i think she has someone in mind oredi..hope she'll be happy wif him one dae.
this thurs, my exams will start..n hopefully able to do it... yeah
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
Saturday, November 08, 2003
suddenly this song was up on tv3 yesterday..mayb i can tell my fren tis..or if she's reading this..it'll be good...
Everybody Hurts
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
..by R.E.M.
Saturday, November 08, 2003
Exams juz round the corner and wat the hell am i doin here? i dunno..
anyways..read a fren's blog...wonder why she is so sad? wish i can help her. but i can't call her, tok to her..
i envy her frens who get to go out wif her, see her happy being. envy her frens who get to talk to her. why must she hate herself? she juz needs a cryin shoulder, someone to vent her anger on..she doesn't need a relationship wif another guy. she juz needs a fren to talk to.
wish i can help her. gave her my number..but i wonder if she would call me. this time of the month, she shouldn't be soo sad. it's not the end of the world. she should be proud of who she is. dun need to tear down the walls. she juz need some time to think.
maybe, just maybe, thinkin will set her free....and thinkin of all the positive things...will make her happy....
really wish she can share her problems with me....wish i could help her...
NuZ
Saturday, November 08, 2003
Saturday, November 01, 2003
thought of writing this down..i really thought of this!
"True love does not exist. Your partner either leaves you, or they die."
Cool....
NuZ
Saturday, November 01, 2003