Wednesday, December 31, 2003
to eli..i'm sorree i overreacted..
its ok if u dun believe mi..
when i saed i was holdin back my tears...
is it uncommon for guys to cry?
for the mistakes they made..
juz cause they overreacted..
when they missed a girl soo much..
that he wished it's better to be dead?
i dunno..i din try to cry..
they juz felt like comin out
comin out frm my eyes..
i've been a jerk throughout all my life
that's why i can never be find love..
never in my life again...
sorry eli..i am.....wish i can b in a coma or somethin...so tat it'll make up for my actions....
NuZ
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
"...most cigarettes I smoke I don't enjoy. I think that's the case with the majority of smokers. You put one in your mouth because you know that if you don't, you'll only be thinking about smoking and wondering when you're going to have your next one until you do..."
the business of dying
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
got my scorponok todae...65 bucks..
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tomorrow's e end of 2003!...everyone's partyin away...enjoyin themselves..gettin drunk...
makin love, building love, creating love, finding love, fiding new love....
i'm stayin at home.....no love found.....nothing....
NuZ
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
soo tired..got my BT02 Lambor sideswipe..75 bucks *fly* *fly* *fly*
but...worth it..reallie mint in box...looks brand new...
ok..wun be meetin her..sigh..pesta pujangga...also dunno yet....coz she ...well..she doesn't sound tat interested...
soo..i guess...wun b seein her....
sigh.....
i miss her....but she doen't believe mi i guess...told mi to go online..n when i did..she juz logged off..
sheesh
NuZ
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Sunday, December 28, 2003
True friends don't force,
true friends don't show sympathy.
True friends won't make you forget all your troubles.
True friends will share your problems..be with you and solve them..not forget them..
they wun show sympathy and feel sorry...they must have empathy..
Don't be fooled....
NuZ
Sunday, December 28, 2003
aarrgghh...pain!!!
wore my capal for almost the whole day!!..pain!!!swellin at the heel...aarrgghh..i haf never worn a capal for a day!!...wat more...walk here n there..aarrgghh!!
but end of the dae...got money..heehee...shhhh...can't tell..tak bagus.. ;)
tomorrow gettin my transformers..woohoo!! 75 bucks...
meetin a net fren..
wellguess tats all i can sae..n oh..smoked 6 sticks todae....sheesh
NuZ
Sunday, December 28, 2003
Saturday, December 27, 2003
writing tis ..so i dun hafta repeat myself..juz felt like helpin out u girls out there!!
as a guy...i noe..
1)when a guy is in a rush for a relationship wif u..ask urself..or ask him, (dun ask him why he chose you!!) how many girlfrens he had b4 u..and when was his last failed one...if it's not within 1yr plus..he's a desperate man and juz wanna get hitched for all the wrong reasons! you are the next best alternative..till he finds another one...
2)if u wanna find a nice guy..dun go for those who goes to club..heck they r the ones who will make u cry..unless fun is all tat u r lookin for...
3)all guys are nice when it comes to flirtin..its always like tat...i'm like tat too..but i always end up on the shitty side..sheesh...coz i've been tooo darn nice..they hate mi...
well..if u gals dun wanna heed ..wateva..and if u r hurt..coz of one of these reasons..haha..dun come cryin..u deserved it!
to the guys..whoever readin tis..please dun hurt them..pity men like mi..coz they all come to mi cryin..n there's nothin i can do..sheesh..i hate that..
Saturday, December 27, 2003
she wanted to go clubbin..b dae thingy..
i din like e idea..but..who the hell do i think i am...to stop her..
juz keep to myself...i juz dun like e idea..
saed her frens forced her....well.if they r frens...they can't force u...wat r they then?...i dunno..
sheesh...
her bdae comin soon..sooo...i guess...her frens will b bz wif her..callin her n such..n then...tuesdae..she wun be able to go out wif mi..coz ..mayb ..she would forget....heh heh...normal...
one thing..why do i care? seems funni.....
Saturday, December 27, 2003
Friday, December 26, 2003
interesting...haha..from titus on channel i
"...losing builds character...you know who said it? a LOSER..."
hahahahha
Friday, December 26, 2003
having a bloody nose..mayb caused by the amt of caffeine..choc..sheesh...
had waffles..then coke..then cigarettes....wah...and also lack of sleep..sheesh...bloody nose...bloody nose..when will it end...
Friday, December 26, 2003
read tis frm the book "the business of dying"
"...never rely on the support of people you're trying to help....the hand that pats you on the back one day can just easily grab you by the balls..."
"...never rely on anyone else for support. In this world, you've got to get use of the fact that, in the end, you're always on your own..."
interesting....
Friday, December 26, 2003
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Artist: maroon 5
Album: songs about jane
Title: harder to breath
How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground I'm walking on
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Monday, December 22, 2003
got my transformers juz now..50 bucks...a Landcross reissue...
need to save up more...next yr buyin some more toys....well, at least i'm spendin on mi...better than spendin on some pple..i can't even celebrate my passin of exams..sheesh
WATEVA!!!
Monday, December 22, 2003
Sunday, December 21, 2003
sianzzzzz
supposed to meet eli todae...but she is SOOOO CLEVER, SHE DROVE TO ORCHARD!!!!! IT'S A BLODDY SUNDAY!!! 3PM!!
tak jadi la...no parking..duhz!!!
sheesh..all i'm askin..is to spend some quality time!!!....fuck man....
reserved a Landcross..50 bucks...tomorrow collecting...
after todae..i did some thinkin..yeah...why do i bother showin care and concern??...yeah...u called mi up in the wee hrs of the morning...coz ur car had a dent...sheesh!! to pple..i guess tis is juz an obligation...to mi..i'm tryin to show somethin...
freak man!!!
now on..screams of fear..cries of heartbreaks..will be music to my ears..coz i dun wanna gif a damn wat pple do!!!
the onli pple i care..will b my family..e blind..e elderly...
NuZ
Sunday, December 21, 2003
Why find new friends?
if you can't keep your old ones
Why make promises
when you know you can never fulfil.
Why din you call me?
like macy saed "i tot i'd see you again?"
Why trust me?
when you can't trust yourself
Why get to know me?
when you know, you're gonna ditch me in the end
Don't say you like me,
when all you meant to say was "we are friends"
Don't ask for a hug, a kiss or sympathy anymore..
cos all you get..is just hatred...anger..and curses instead....
NuZ
Sunday, December 21, 2003
Thursday, December 18, 2003
got through my lesson 8!!!!! feb..will b judgement day..hahahha.....hopefully able to make it..then...my license!!! ahhhhh...sooo....nice.... ;)
mayb besok gi gym...haven't confirm wif my fren....
eli sounded angry todae...dunno y.... :met ol frens...amin..talib..ber...sakina(my long lost 3rd cuz) :P, armi...
cool..mayb next week hain a meetin..mayb i shld call them up.. ;)
NuZ
Thursday, December 18, 2003
Monday, December 15, 2003
tomorrow..meetin my ex schmates..well..onli 2 of them..long time never meet them..goin dwn cck...chillin...
one of them asked mi whether i smoke..well..after i told him used to..he told mi..its good to stop..funni comment frm a smoker...but i was thinkin...mayb..i'll start again tomorrow...smoking...why must i listen to wat pple sae?....no one cares...soo i dun care....think i'm gonna start my cigs again...
Monday, December 15, 2003
today...passed my prac 7...goin for pract 8...wah..if tis goes on..i can get my license by 5th feb!!!!cool!!
todae..mum was furious..coz my bro tak kemas bilik..heh heh..worst part..i also got a scoldin..for no reason!..abeh da blikan nasi bryani...tak nak makan...majuk...lerr....wat to do...
i ate a bit...takder mood...well.the scoldin wasn't e reason...
juz wonderin..y is it..my fren...leh ask her fren to accompany her go buy clothes...go out..but never asked mi...sigh....n another...went out wif other guys b4..but mi?..tak angkat fone...told mi to msg her if anythin..but no reply...again..wats e use of a hp?? next time..i wun ask for anyone's no. unless they r my ex schoolmates...
well tokin bout ex schoolmates..n ex rugby team mate...yusoff won a gold in the silat competition..cool
NuZ
Monday, December 15, 2003
Saturday, December 13, 2003
She forgot...we were supposed to meet...
another friend....already in a relationship....
another friend...has a guy she missed...
ME?...
my soul's dead indeed.....
NuZ
Saturday, December 13, 2003
Friday, December 12, 2003
If you missed me,
you would have rememberd me...
If you reallie missed me,
you would have remembered everything i've said...
But you forgot....
you din miss mi.....i'm so unimportant....
Friday, December 12, 2003
Thursday, December 11, 2003
If you ever love again,
Love with all your heart.
If you ever love again,
take good care of his heart.
You chose him,
without thinkin about me.
now I can only pray
that you'll be happy with him.
If you ever love again,
Love with all your heart.
If you ever love again,
take good care of his heart.
Now I can only pray,
that you'll be happy with him.
Goodbye,
and I'll take my leave ....
NuZ
~Honeybee Brambles~
Thursday, December 11, 2003
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
If i could request a song for eli..tis would be it...
seusia malam ku menantimu,
dihembus embun aku tesipu,
mungkinkah kau lupa temu janji kita,
kau gembira bersama teman-temanmu,
berlari-lari ku mencari mu,
selembut salju musim berlalu,
mengapa berubah sekelip mata,
hatiku gundah tiada terhingga..
kau umpama merpati putih,patah sayapnya,di udara..
berbahaya..
By OAG...akustatik
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Why did you run,
I always let you leave.
You wouldn't be the first
to hit and run away from me..
Why must you say that you miss me?
Is it out of courtesy?
Or out of pity?
You never missed mi,
and never did..
You won't ever love me...
and you never will...
It would have been better,
if you could just say goodbye.
Rather than enjoying this suffer...
by letting the time to fly...
NuZ
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
passed my lesson 6 for my motorcycle...another 2 more to tp test....
sigh...supposed to go out besok..wif eli..but..till now..no reply...sucks....
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Friday, December 05, 2003
like a rainbow after the rain....after alll that has happened to mi these past few weeks...after all the neglect by my frens..i had good news yesterdae..got 3 distinctions and 1 credit for my exams....
Friday, December 05, 2003
Thursday, December 04, 2003
sucks bein mi nowadaes...sufferin from Yunusitis syndrome....a disease whereby all my frens won't bother bout mi coz they r too bz...it usually occurs durin the month long holidaes..and will recover in a mth's time...
If tomoro starts without me..it'll be the greatest thing for all my frens..doesnt matter if i haf met them or not....
Thursday, December 04, 2003
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
nothin much todae..got my Smack down 5 game todae....got my spawn toy yesterdae...
sigh..i need to go otwn to c some of the toys' prices...aske her to go..but...she saed she was sick of orchard.....n if we were watchin a movie...she wanted ju on2, gothika or lotr....but all haf yet to be released.....sigh...i guess...she wun be goin then....sigh....
:~(
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Monday, December 01, 2003
tis year..raya not as usual..so sad. had to saparate granny n grandad...coz he had some kind of "black" thing...beatin her up..pushin her...soo many problems...he had learnt tis power of being a half tiger sometimes...its scary..hopefully it will all be over soon...
read my fren's blog...she cried....i dunno wat happened..if onli...
sigh...i can't do much...she oredi has someone....she told mi to do some soul searchin..well..i found out..it's juz mi...i'm always e main problem....
soo..i guess i will hafta back off....i hafta learn when i hafta draw a specific line...and it seems..i hafta draw a line between frenship n relationship between mi and any other future gals that i may come across...i'm not the typical guy whom girls wanna haf fun wif...i'm more of an arse....those romantic movies are all lies...e songs, e poems i wrote..r of no use..true love never exist these days...gals tend to look at how many frens a guy has, how much he's able to drink, how cool looking he is, how cute he looks, how hunky he is...and it doesnt matter if he's a playboy....coz to these gals..love hafta hurt...and when they r hurt..they'll come cryin to mi...and there's nothin i can do.....
sigh..sucks being me...especially tis yr...soo many probs....
Monday, December 01, 2003
