Sunday, February 29, 2004
gosh!! having a neck ache..i dunno..is it the wts? hmm....wateva la...wun die from it..bwahahahah
wat did i do yesterdae?..woke up in the morn..for a morn jog, then vacuumed the house...hmm..d/loaded the mtv of "here mama"..coooll...i'm like dancing in my bro's room..coz all r out..hahahaha
went to meet ely juz now at white sands..hmm..kind of far..if u think..i stay at wdls...but who cares anyways..haha i need that travellin time in the bas anyways..
well..things went out well..we toked..n then..now i noe...i'm free from everything...means...i am soooo available..well.who cares anyways..i m no bad boi..hmm wat else...i dun drink..no tatoos, no piercings..no clubs...hahahah....wat the fuck..!!??!!??!!
well..at least we toked things out..clearly...
i'm no more confused...hmm..i think so.. :P
deleted all her smses she gave..(yah yah..i did keep them k? geez!! coz one of them wrote "hey darling!" who wouldn't keep that??!!) .....
guess its a new start...n ely..if you are reading this, thanks for being honest...and take care of urself..
keep that smile..dun ever vent ur anger on the kids :P
and u r not a zucchini...hmm..u are a red rose that grows in the wild...
oh..fucking hell..still haven't finish my law assignment...fUCK!!!!!! stupid lecturer..ask soo many questions..damn....
tomorrow..back to school..last week..i've been behaving like a one arsehole bastard..haha...well..bastards always get the best things in da world dun they? heh heh....who cares anyways.. :P
muz go back to all my punk rock music in my heads nowadays.. ;)
punk rock rulez!!!!!!!!!
"i..would liek to fuck a dog in its ass..." hahahaha...oh btw, that was from a blink 182 song.. :P
NuZ
"Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."
-Swedish Proverb
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Artist: Blink 182
Album: Blink 182
Title: Stockholm Syndrome
This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late
You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me
This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Friday, February 27, 2004
wrote tis down..while having my lecture..okok...sorree.. wasn't payin attention.. :P
I'm like a money plant,
that grows on a pole
Without any support,
there's nothnig I can hold.
I need support,
and i don't need a big tree...
All i ever need is you...
a sanguine zucchini..
NuZ to Eli....
i juz found out..wats a sanguine..and a zucchini...
and i wanna be the stem..n u r the flower of the zucchini...
let them cook mi..and u'll be the garnish... coz i'm an eyesore...
"...obligations never prevented anyone from following their dreams. Remember that you are the manifestation of the absolute, and do only those things in your lives that are worth the effort. Only those who do that will understand the great transformations that are yet to be seen"
-adapted from The Valkyies
Friday, February 27, 2004
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Aquarius :ever met someone that appeared to be charming, funny, tantalizing, and intelligent, it was probably an Aquarian. They usually live in their own minds, filled with a world of ideas. Although they seem to possess a certain detached quality and may sometimes come across as removed from feelings, they are warm, outgoing, and very concerned with others. These Humanitarians often are wary of emotion and like to deal rationally with life. Optimism is a big part of their nature, along with the knack of friendliness and the mastery of flirtation. If you want to get the Aquarians attention, you will need to intellectually stimulate them. Good conversation, including debates are a favorite past time of the Water Bearer. Open minded, Aquarius can accept criticism
and understand others perceptions about things. If you have a problem, they are always willing to listen, though after awhile, enough is enough. Tolerance is a big part of an Aquarians temperament. They are slow to take offense, never jealous and never over emotional. When planning a date with an Aquarius, you don't have to go out of your way to impress them.
Just about anything pleases them. From sharing a picnic lunch to a candle lit dinner, Chinese or Mexican, it doesn't matter, as long as variety is on the menu. In time, a relationship can grow, built on trust. Never nag an Aquarius about a mistake. A mistake is unimportant to them, so don't harp on it. If they are constantly told what is wrong, they will begin to feel unappreciated and the relationship can get
rocky. In any relationship, the Aquarian may find it hard to give of themselves but will always remain loyal and devoted to a worthy partner. When the Aquarius makes a promise, it's usually never broken. However, if you become demanding, and critical, they may start to wonder elsewhere. They want a partner to share in the adventures, along with the challenges, that life has to offer. Life with them will never be boring.
interesting.....one isn't true about mi....wun tell la... paiseh leh
:P
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
sucky....i'm in school now, in the comp lab..for 2 days in a row...staying back for project..aarrgghh!!!
todae my macroecons lecturer first lesson wif us..heh heh..forgive mi God, but..haha..first name that came into my mind was..."william hung!!!"
bwahahaha...i can't believe it!! geez
to those that i saed that william hung has that typical engineering student look...well..i was mistaken...ahahahha
and the way he laughed..geez!! like a nerdy kind..n he tot that we were laughing coz my fren made a joke.. :P
*that's evil of us*
haha...well..like my frens do sae, never judge a book by its cover....he has got a B.A (HON) and Masters of Arts from Oxford University and a MBA(with distinction) in Finance from the University of Hull...WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
:P~~~~
so..that's it for the dae..tomorrow ..no schedule... weee~~~
NuZ
"To hear it told is not equal to experience"
-Japanese Proverb
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Mungkin
Anuar Zain
Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
Bukan maksud untuk membisusepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
( korus )
Mungkinkah bersama dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati nan suci
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat kini
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
( bridge )
Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama
Cinta...
to eli, from Nuz.....
sigh......
Sunday, February 22, 2004
bored...yesterdae went to causeway pt for a while for lunch..then i bought a vcd.."Hitler- The rise of Evil"..it's nice...
his confidence was whoa... but his insanity..was a lil...too much for mi la.. :P
then evening..went my uncle's new house...he juz moved in..my granny is ok now...she walked..and din wan mi to carry her down the stairs..haha... in the end..my uncle carried her down..well.it is onli 3 storeys high..and..my granny is soo thin..so veri light la... heehee onli that i dunno how to carry... :P
todae..veri bored..i dunno wat to do... sigh...
well..tomorrow...school again..as usual..meetin the bitches and bastards..n my frens...
till then..here's a quote from a famous guy..
“I already gave my best, and I have no regrets at all,”
-William Hung
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Friday, February 20, 2004
todae..heeheee..somethin disgusting...
was in the train..headin toward jurong east from woodlands...at..hmm.bukit gombak ithink,
got this guy...he rushed into the train...then when he was sittin..(sitting diagonally in front
of mi)i tot he was trying to reach somethin in his pocket...GEEZ!!! he actualli slipped his hand into
his pants...i dunno wat he did...but after tat..he was using his right hand now..n scratch his balls...bwahahaha
the gal beside him..was feelin awkward oredi..but tis guy.w.as juz happily scratchin away..n after tat..he was wiping his face wit the right hand...well the right hand..din slipp in his pants la....
after tat..at jurong east..he held on to the metal pole...using his left hand..the hand that slipped into his pants..eewww...
tis is wat i found.. MRT number 82, the carriage is no. 3099...and the pole..2nd door...on the right of the train...its the front cabin....eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..
anyways todae's topic..was boring..abt financial planning...well..te topic wasn't boring la..but the way the lecturer was presenting..was boring...haha..my fren...Mir ...was like tellin mi.. " eh yunus...how come we dun haf beautiful lecturers uh? look at her...wah liew~"
haha...i was like.."hmm..din think of tat todae...last time yah la..heh heh..well..mayb coz..they wan us to focus on wat's on the screen rather than who's in front of us..."
yesterdae..i think..it was shereen's bdae....coz when i reached the lect room...there was a cake..n she n her gang were eatin n playin wif it..heh heh...chasing each other wif the cream..geez!..then shereen asked mi and chee yong.. "hey..u all why never look nervous ah?..hmm..."
after tat.. she was like tryin to tell jasmine .... "yunus.." i saw her mouthin my name so as to tell jas to hit mi wif the cream...haha..too bad girl..din get mi :P
well..weekends r here...so bored...geez
NuZ
to the guy who was scratchin..
"Happiness lies in the joy of achievement and the thrill of creative effort."
-Franklin D. Roosevelt
bwahahahahahha
Friday, February 20, 2004
Artis : Yusry
Lagu : Dekat Padamu
Dekat padamu... arah ingin ku tuju
Walaupun jauh akan ku tempuh
Kerana hanya sunyi yang menemani hari
Semenjak kau pergi membawa diri
Oh dekat padamu...
Di sana kan bersatu
Dua jiwa yang telah terpisah
Kesetiaan yang telah kita sama ikrarkan
Ku pegang teguh... janji ku kotakan
Andai tersalah arah... berikan ku tanda
Agar kau terima yang sebaiknya
Jika cinta kita hanya sejarah lama
Sudilah ku cuba kali kedua
Walau jauh akan ku gegas berlari
Walau tinggi bisa ku terbang di langit
Walau sedalam mana akan ku selami
Kerana cinta sedalam itu mekar
bila ku dekat padamu
Dekat padamu... itu destinasiku
Tak kira apa jua kan ku terima
Harapanku kan terbuka pintu di hatimu
Dengan rela menunggu kehadiranku
Andai tersalah arah... Berikan ku tanda
Agar kau terima yang sebaiknya
Harapan mendorong ku mengusung
cinta kita
Janganlah dibalas rasa kecewa
For you eli....song for u...somethin..i can listen to..when i miss u...
NuZ
Friday, February 20, 2004
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
something i got from my email.....
Hayati dan fahami....
Jika kamu memancing ikan.... setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata
kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu.... janganlah sesekali
kamu
lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja.... kerana ia akan
sakit
oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan
menderita
selagi ia masih hidup.
Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada
seseorang...
setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga
hatinya....janganlah
sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja....kerana dia
akan
terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan
segalanya
selagi dia mengingatimu....
Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada², jangan terlalu mengharap
pada
takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh.... cukuplah
sekadar
keperluanmu.... Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu
menampalnya semula.... akhirnya ia dibuang.... sedangkan jika kamu
cuba
membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi....
Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terima lah
seadanya....Janganlah
kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu
istimewa.... anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk
menerimanya.... akhirnya kamu kecewa meninggalkannya. Sedangkan
jika kamu
memaafkannya boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga ke
akhirnya....
Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi... yang kamu pasti baik
untuk
dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba
mencari
makanan yang lain..Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan. Kelak, nasi
itu akan
basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.
Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu.
Mengasihimu.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain.
Terlalu
mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia
menjadi
milik orang lain. Kamu juga yang akan menyesal.....
NuZ
If you should die before me, ask if you
could bring a friend.
-- Stone Temple Pilots
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
weeeeeeeeeeeee~~
went out wif eli....bought my mum's bdae present..i noe its a mth's time..but i wun b free next week...n she also..soo..i wanna c her...i miss her...soo much... :(
i juz dun understand things between us...reallie..one moment she is soo cold...the next..soo nice.... i dun understand!!!
i wished we r together....thru thick n thin... i like her company..i spend tokin to her..soo much... its as if..i toked to my guy frens..tats how much i enjoyed my time wif her..... even for juz a mere 2 hrs.... neber had i enjoyed or toked tat much....wif a gal b4..outside...sigh.... gonna miss her.... but..conversation interrupted by her phone... some guyfren of hers.... she saed she known him since 19...sigh..... why so many guy frens callin??...... tat dae also... :( and u tot i was flirtin arnd..geez..... :((
got tis from my email...
Does your name begin with: E?
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually.
You need a friend for a lover and a companion. You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while - it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book.(Sometimes,in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)
NuZ
If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be
a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you.
-- Winnie the Pooh
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Sunday, February 15, 2004
todae...kind of a sad dae for mi.... sold off my toys...some of them..coz got buyers...at clarke quay.....todae's flea market surprisingly many stalls..many things...got a toy...transformers...no not for mi..but for idris..he kept complainin that he doesn't haf the good guy....soo..got him a surprisingly cheap one..at 10 bucks...geez!
i sold my MASK truck..rhino...i always wanted to own it since 6yrs ol....and i owned it for less than a yr..now..in the hands of a good guy....i hope.....imagine...took mi..17 yrs...to own it.....and now..i gave it away..coz pple around mi...dun respect my hobby...mayb if i drink n club..they like mi more..coz its a "good hobby" to them..they r sooo cool..sooo manly....
geez...why follow the crowd....why?......
NuZ
"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Saturday, February 14, 2004
todae's the dae when idiots n followers of cupids....celebrate...they start t oshow more care n love for each other.....flowers...chocs..sweet things.....
FUCK THEM!!!
why not love everydae??!!! why must it b onli todae that they show their partners how much they mean to each other??!! waste money..buy roses todae...geez!!
why not buy roses on any otehr day?..u mean..they can't show their love on other days??..nonsense!!!
u can sae "i love you" at any given right time..doesn't need to b v-dae,....
valentine's day..actualli...a day where the guys..haf onli few things on their minds.....making out..n sex....GEEZ!!!!
fuck u all!!!!!!!!!!!!
NuZ
"Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so."
-David Grayson
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Friday, February 13, 2004
Why is it so easy for ppl to fall in love nowadays??
I mean...is it really love or lust??
I really dun get it...U see...how can u fall in love in two minutes??
Yah i've heard of love at first sight,but dis is way too creepy than dat.
I guess in cases like those,it's only physical attraction and they dun really care wats inside.
A gerl sees a handsome guy,
a guy sees a pretty gerl,
but in the end dats the only thing they see.....pretty faces.
Love's supposed to be about emotions,mutual feelings for each other,
communication and last but not least....HURT.
If u dun feel hurt or sad dat the person u love is leaving u,
there is definitely sumthing wrong wit ur relationship.
All those I LOVE YOUs are only bedtime stories.
To tell u the truth,it's really hard to find true love now.In some cases even the family's love is fake.
Wat is the world coming to???Dun we need love anymore???
Well.....i do.
NuZ
"from a fren...who passed tis to mi..n i'd like to share wif everyone.....think..it's true..."
Friday, February 13, 2004
Thursday, February 12, 2004
at sgcollect.com....i saw someone sellin his mtvaa tix...at 250 bucks.....then it was sold for 150...the guy who bought tat...muz be either desperate..or stupid..coz....the tix are free!!!...no one sells them! u either win them..or earn them by goin for moshpit auditions...darn...
i offered the guy 10 bucks..haha...he din reply...geez!...no matter wat...still make a profit!..darn him...
sigh..sux...still missing eli..i dunno why?.....i miss her soo much...she doesn't care anymore...bout mi.....sigh..why all of the sudden?.....i still don't understand.......why can't anyone explain??!!...
1st...she seemd soo interested..we seemed so ointerested in each other..then...she acted cold..the again...soo interested..n now..cold again...why??!!....
i noe that some other guys played her feelings b4..but why do take em out on mi??..i dun think its fair.....i really dun think it is...
i'm selling my toys...haf a buyer...sigh..... no one respects my decision of collectin them..soo...why shld i?..i mean...she saed i'm selfish..well...i guess..i'm being unselfish..by makin others happy..even if it means..i wun b totally happy bout it..coz..i need a hobby....n collectin toys..could b one...but w/o support..or respect...i wun do it.....
and...i still dun understand..y u saed i was selfish...when i wanted to b wif u...i mean...isn't it supposed to b a couple thing..n not more than two?....sigh.....
i'm a creep....a weirdo...i dun belong here........ u're different..u r a princess..a fairy....mi?..i'm juz a lousy low down toad...
sux..... i wished i was like those children...soo free...nothin to think about..like my younger bro..juz study..n play..no concerns bout girls...boys hate girls..like i used to b when i was in pri sch......geez..i din even mind scratchin them on their hands when they made mi angry....
now?..i juz cry...n cry..n think..n think.......n i dunno..when it will end......
NuZ
"Dreams are the touchstones of our character."
-Henry David Thoreau
Thursday, February 12, 2004
got tis from my email..kind of true..even if i put mohamed as my first name..or yunus as my second...
M - You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible. You also enjoy mothering your mate.
Y - You are sexual, sensual, and very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forgo the whole thing. You want to control your relationships, which doesn't always work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation, enjoy necking and spending hours just touching, feeling and exploring. However, if you can spend your time making money, you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You need to prove to yourself and your partner what great lover you are. You want feedback on your performance. You are an open, stimulating, romantic bedmate.
inTereStinG......
bY tHE waY.....faiLed mY TP...fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! goin for another on the 25th march...hmm..hey! tats my mum's b dae!!!
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
did my circuit revision todae..darn...i fell down while doin the U-turn..stupid rite?..juz not my dae...i neber fall b4
juz not my dae..reallie....sigh..
some things on my mind?? maybe?
i reallie dunno....
NuZ
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
got tis from my mail....e mail...
NAIL IN THE FENCE
Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.
(Most importantly the last sentence.)
There once was a little boy who had a bad
temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails
and told him that every time he lost his
temper, he must hammer a nail into the back
of the fence. The first day the boy had
driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next
few weeks, as he learned to control his
anger, the number of nails hammered daily
gradually dwindled down. He discovered
it was easier to hold his temper than to
drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't
lose his temper at all. He told his father
about it and the father suggested that the
boy now pull out one nail for each day that
he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally
able to tell his father that all the nails
were gone. The father took his son by the
hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You
have done well, my son, but look at the
holes in the fence. The fence will never be
the same. When you say things in anger,
they leave a scar just like this one. You
can put a knife in a man and draw it out.
It won't matter how many times you say I'm
sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal
wound is as bad as a physical one.
Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They
make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear, they share words of praise
and they always want to open their hearts to us."
Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Monday, February 09, 2004
anyone who's free...goto tis webbie
http://i.flowgo.com/greetings/madeapoop/madeapoop.swf
kind of made mi smile....sigh..when can i haf my own kids sia...haha...
NuZ
Monday, February 09, 2004
what's the use of having hands...
when i can't feel you...
what's the use of having a mouth..
when i can't talk to you..
what's the use of having ears...
when i can't hear your voice..
what's the use of having legs...
when i can't walk with you, by the seaside..watching the sun sets...
what's the use of having a heart..
when i know..it's been broken..smashed..and rejected by you....
life sux.....
NuZ to Eli
Monday, February 09, 2004
Kau Pergi Jua
Wajahmu
Seindah serinya pelangi yang indah
Seharum mawar putih segar berkembang
Wajahmu
Mengapa sering terbayang dimataku
Sehingga terbawa didalam mimpiku
Sayangku
Tahukah kau didalam hatiku ini
Tersimpan perasaan cinta nan suci
Kau bunga
Ingin kusuntingmu menjadi milikku
Lantas kuabadikan dalam jiwaku
Sayangnya
Harapan yang selama ini kubawa
Hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
Semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi
Kau pergi jua
Setelah cinta ku kini membara
Belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
Kau pergi tak kembali...
Dedicated to Miss Eliasarah.....
Monday, February 09, 2004
Artist: PUDDLE OF MUDD
Album: Come Clean
Title: Blurry
Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is
So messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
Everyone is changing
There's no-one left
That's real
To make up
Your own ending
And let me know
Just how you feel
'Cause I am lost
Without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Oh
Nobody told me
What you thought
Nobody told me
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Told you
Where to runaway
Nobody told you
Where to hide
Nobody told you
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Showed you
Where to runaway
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me
You take it all
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave
This pain you gave
Song dedicated to Eliasarah.... i miss you....
Monday, February 09, 2004
Broken Angel
In the room I stood,
so dark and freezing.
I never thought there would,
be a light to guide me.
As I moved closer to the glittering light,
only then did I realised.
With arms opening wide,
She was an angel in disguise.
I knew I would feel secure,
I knew she would be with me.
I knew she won't close the door,
I knew she won't ever break me.
But I was so wrong,
I was so vain.
After a hug that's so warm,
I was pushed away again.
Just because she broke her wings,
when lighting up others' world.
I had to share her sufferings,
and return to my old world.
dedicated to Miss Eliasarah
Monday, February 09, 2004
did my circuit practice todae...went my mum's cuzzin wedding testerdae..she's 26...imagine tat......
my relatives r funni....i haf an uncle who is in sec 3..i think...or younger...an aunt who's abt same age as mi..23...her mum was like askin mi "ni nombor 2 eh?..yg abangnye lawa sikit eh"..n i was like..hmm..ok...
then she saed "yg ni lawa banyak.."..whoa..is tat a compliment?..haha..
well..to mi..wats the use of lookin nice..if my heart isn't a piece...it's all smashed...can't b glued back...sigh....
coz sarah told mi..mi n her...would never b together....sigh...i noe...nice guys always finish last...gals like bad guys..like as if it's a turn on...sheesh...
i asked her wat was it she wanted to tell mi..n she saed tat i interrupted her tat dae..n tot that i wasn't interested..sigh..i reallie need to listen more.n speak less..i mean..i accidentally sidetracked tat dae..coz she saed i looked like as if i haf many gfs..tats y i interrupted!!..i mean, whoa...wat in mi saes tat i'm like tat??...geez!..
i wun wanna haf many gfs..pls!!..one is enuff...i will stay faithful...always....unless...the gal found someone else...or the parents dun like mi...geez...other than tat..i will devote myself to her!! God!!
sigh..well..sarah...watever u do....juz wanna wish u all the best....its good u wanna study again...and...it was nice knowing such a beautiful lady like you.... i'm gonna miss u soo much..and if some guys play u arnd..they r jerks....n curses to them..they will be run over by a truck....
i've never been soo happy when i'm out wif a gal b4...till u came into my life..n i'm sayin this from the bottm of my heart......i mean..wat's the use of lying even on the net...coz onli God knows..how much i need u by my side...
looks like another lonely year for mi......
NuZ
Monday, February 09, 2004
Sunday, February 08, 2004
i dreamt...she n mi are couples..we were soo darn happy!! i was protecting her..keeping her by my side...
sigh...usually, my dreams..are the opposite....
i reallie wish..this would be an exception....
NuZ
Sunday, February 08, 2004
sigh..
dae, b4 yesterdae..smsed eli "i'm getting married on the 30 feb 2004...please come.."
and then..6.30am, i read an sms... tat she juz came back frm clubbing..she wanted to destress...and that we shouldn't contact each other anymore...she couldn't believe that i even asked her to accompany mi to go tho the body worlds exhibition when iwas oredi in a relationship...
geez..i mean..it was juz a joke...there isnt any 30th feb..feb tis yr ends on the 29th.....n i'm not gettin married!!...
yestterdae nite called her...she din wanna tok....i guessed abt a guy...somethin to do wif a guy..n she saed yes..n dun wish to tok bout it...she dun wish to tok....i mean..sigh.....why eli??...1stly..i tot the way u reacted...u actualli had feelings for mi??!!....
i was wrong...now..i guess...tis saturdae...(14th feb..)..u wun c mi uh?...sigh...u'd be happily enjoyin the company of the guy u reallie liked....u shld at least told mi the truth u noe...its ok if u think its gonna hurt mi..at least it hurts..n din make mi suffer...like i am now.... i tried to show that i cared..n i;m sorree i dun haf a drivin license...if i do, i'll b drivin u when ur car's in the werkshop!....
if u ever love again...choose wisely..n think..that its not for u..its for both.....u chose him...without thinkin bout mi...n u saed u enjoyed my company..n i do too....i respect u as a woman...as a lady..but i guessed..girls nowadays liek guys who like to tease n make fun of girls......sigh....
u told mi u weren't dating anyone..i forgot to ask u whether u r seeing someone.....
i tot u were strong..but..u are actualli not..u need someone's help..but u dun wanna ask...u are afraid that pple will look down on u...
i'm sorree for loving u....u made mi cry again last night...thanks..... if its sufferin u wish to put mi in..u juz did....
i wish u could gif us a chance....n kal mi..n tok to mi...n c mi....i want ur company more than anythng else.....
NuZ
Sunday, February 08, 2004
Friday, February 06, 2004
my lecturer asked us..
"2 guys in an airplane...one wif parachute..the other w/o...the plane is crashing...who has more risk? ......."
i was like...the guy wif the parachute..coz ..what if..the parachute doesn't open?..waht if??.....
the whole class said the guy w/o the parachute...
magdy: the guy with the parachute has more risk..coz the guy w/o..has nothin to think of..juz death..the one with the parachute..what if..the parachute doesn't open?..what if he fell wrongly and broke his legs?..
this kind of risk...is the one seen by contrarian investors...they bet against popular investment trends..they r opportunists... very few of them...
hmm...and i wonder..i thought the same way as him...i'm one of them........
NuZ
Friday, February 06, 2004
Thursday, February 05, 2004
todae..was juz..normal...
still having the sarcastic einstein lookalike lecturer who's aussie but sounded french...i mean..Magdy Stephan...wat the heck is tat? some prisoners from france brought to australia years back??!! God!! he's such a DAG!!
the student welfare commitee "person in charge" came to tok to us bout valentine's day celebration next week...
"..those interested please return the form tomorrow. there'll be games, karaoke session, and candle light dinner..u can come alone or wif a partner.."
yeah..as if i now haf mood to do tat....eli dun even believe mi when i saed i missed her .. "point taken"..tats all she saed...sigh.....
guess..i'l ljuz hafta wait...till next saturdae...to see whether eli can go out....wif mi....
NuZ
"..why do i feel jealous when taufik was with you?? why did my hair stand on ends??...why were u a little bit uncertain when i asked 'u alone izzit?'....why??"....
Thursday, February 05, 2004
she's an ocean...
soo beautiful, and full of life...
i'm just a river...
blocked by the big dam
i can never meet with the ocean...
i'm so polluted and dirty
i'm just...not perfect.....
NuZ
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
my dearest, i've missed you very very much since yesterdae together,
i hope yesterdae will be soo special in years to come
i've been telling myself over n over in my mind lately,
i've been sitting here..looking at your picture,
getting more lovesick every minute.
i wanted tat pic more than anythin else i know except of coz you yourself.
i keep thinkin of u darling. keep wishing i could be there with u.
i want to live in the worst possible situation so that i can see you but, things dun look so good on this subject.
i've never been so lonesome in my life as i am rite now...
i'm completely lost without you darling...
i never realised i could miss any one person soo much..
i juz hope it wun be too much longer till i can be with you ..
and live the same normal life....together...
NuZ...to Eli.....
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Monday, February 02, 2004
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
met eli!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooooooooooooooooooo happpppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to c the body worlds..heehee..almost like a exhibition of car parts..haha...u can c all the parts of u sia..reallie nice..n the guy who came up wif tis..is creative n sick also..heehee
eli picked mi up at pasir ris..then drove there...paid for the tix...worth it...coz to spend n c her at the same time..i dun mind... :P
had dinner at simei banquet...yah..she played wif her food...kind of cute when she does it....heehee
i still din noe wat she wanted to tell mi..she saed bout mi n her...how things would b goin..but then..i accidentally sidetracked the topic!!
sigh...wat i reallie...hoped for..was..us being together....she's strong...independent..i need tat kind of lady in my life....to tegur mi....sigh...i wished ...tat's wat's on her mind...or mayb not.....
i enjoyed my time wif her...reallie...wished i could stop the time..so tat we could spend time wif each other forever....sigh...
i wanna c her again..i reallie miss her... n tis miss..is not the fren thing...its more...like i..feel sooo lost...when we saed our goodbyes......
wat is the meaning of tis?........help mi.....
i need her....
NuZ
Monday, February 02, 2004
Sunday, February 01, 2004
tired...ate alot!!!
aarrggh!!!!!!
well, who cares..haha...met my cuzs....nice.. ;) one juz booked out frm tekong yesterdae..haha....told mi his stories..saw a ghost..heh heh..common there..
met my another cuz...she in my collecge for her 1st 3 mths..can't believe she joined choir!!! my God!!! i asked her why not the eng ldds thing..n she din wan coz they din haf the drama...haha..funni... :P
told her to join touch rugby also..haha.... she din wan to..lookin at her..well..can understand la.. :P
soo obored..tired..but can't sleep...darn it..tomorrow parents goin to johor...bros also..mi?..not goin coz meetin eli to go to the body worlds thingy....if i can contact her..... sigh... why????!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on a happy note..well..watched dunn owat show tis afternoon..tis guy saed "why do old men eat viagra? they dun eat it coz they r impotent...they had to eat it coz old women are ugly!!"
NuZ
Sunday, February 01, 2004
