Walking along your broken alley.
So dark and lonely,
endless road...
Where's the ending?
Peering through your windows of hope,
Not a smile..nor a wave..
Not a glance,
not even for a while.
Who are you?
What am I doing here?
I've not yet smiled at you..
nor ask you why there was a tear..
Continuing down this darkened alley..
Finding love that's unreal.
Fake feelings falling above me..
I'm just a passerby in your life.
NuZ
Precious Gem,
you came out of the blue.
Like a pearl in a clam,
you made me feel brand new.
Would you be my Valkryie?
Oh Precious Gem please?
Be there when I'm lonely,
I'm begging on my knees.
But there's a Ghost around her,
the Ghost of her past.
Dear Precious Gem would always remember,
the warrior who broke her trust.
And now i'm sitting here,
praying for a miracle to arrive.
But i will never belong to her.
Oh Precious Gem....tell me it's a lie...
NuZ
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
hmm...was soo tired todae..dunno y....
uurrggh..feeling sooo uuurrgghh...
think its becoz i havent been doin anythin lately...sheesh
anyways...met a fellow forumer at wdls juz now...finally got to sell off my toys worth $155!!
hahaha...yey!!
oh.then my fone rang..i tot who sia....skali it was aida...haha
she was looking for cat litter thingy...yupz..she's now taking care of a kitten...dunno how many mths old...
anyways...long time din c her...kinda miss her..haha...
*slaps on the forehead*
Yunus!!! dun say that on yer blog!! later pple will read!!
well...juz missing a fren is ok rite?? not tt i had a crush on her b4.....or did i?...hmm...
haha..
anyways..will ber werkin tomorrow...n fridae...no skul for the rest of this week..phew~
hmm..wat else...hmm..ntg else....
oh...i reallie hope can meet up wif eli by tis weekend!!..uurrgghh.... darnz.... long tyme neber c her..think the last tyme i saw her..was like..hmm...last yr?? early last yr??..yuh....
eli!!! where the hell are you?!!!!
geez
NuZ
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Fake feelings
They ran over me.
My broken heart's,
not the only injury
Fake feelings,
ran over me again.
My soul's dead
I'm feeling numb...
no more pain...
You had hugged me,
before going for the kill...
smiled while looking at me
frowned when i looked at you..
Every step that was taken,
was faith in my mind...
But you had always waited,
waited for me to fall....
Whatever that you did behind me..
Why didn't you show to me...
I'm waiting for you now...
waiting for you to die in front of mi...
NuZ
Thursday, August 04, 2005
feeling sick now..cant sleep...
i wanna puke....
i met her....she had troubles wif her project...
soo i tot i could help her..in the end..
she gave mi that attitude look and attitude voice to say that she is lazy to tell mi wat to do and
wat she is supposed to do...
i noe she is sick..but....she's been behaving like this ever since we started our rship...
not tt we r still a couple..but..why???
she told mi she will be having a date wif her supervisor on mondae..said he is nice...
he is himself....of coz!!!
and why cant i be myself?? coz she din let mi !!!!! she said i bragged...well..wat the hell?!!! i juz
told her that there was this girl who wanted to be wif mi and i rejected her!!! is that bragging???
unless of coz i saed that i knew some models who wanted to be wif mi!! geez!!!
and oh...saed sum guy is sooo sweet for sending her roses....well.yeah..i tot ur mum din wan u to
b in a rship?? oh yuh...coz that fucker isnt YUNUS!!!!
and oh...i bet he was the one who helped you pay your 500 dollars worth of bills and school
supplementary fees?? and oh...was he also the one who listenned to you crying at 3am when ur
ex broke up wif u?? when ur ex made sumone pregnant??? oh...oh...i bet he's the one who got u
the pregnancy kit when u were soo powerless and ur ego fell when u found out u may b like tt as
well???.....n he muz be worried like hell.....since he noes you for a year!!..yea..much longer than
mi... am sure u trust him!!
wait a min...wasnt that guy mi??...ahh....soo..doin all those...doesn't mean tt i luv her?? i stood by
her??? i could've juz left like tt when i found out the truth but did i??...i din!!! until she showed
mi attitude again....twice!! and not tokin to mi in public??!! geez!!!
afraid that ur frens may found out that i am her guy??! gosh....
and smiling when on the fone wif her fren...and then a frown when she put dwn the fone n looked
at mi??!!! wat is tt??!!!
geez! i thought u were my strength...my girl...my lady....my valkryie.....
but it turned out..i was juz her petty cash box....a punching bag...a dart board....
somethin that she can vent her frustrations on...and when her troubles all soaked up in mi....
she would juz haf fun wif alll her bloody cute and clever frens..and leave the idiotic mi behind...
and then come to mi again..when she has problems..and leave again...go out wif sum guys.....and
haf fun....and they will think "gee...she is having fun wif mi!! that means her bf aint treating her
good!"
and all i ever did...was to prove to her that i truly luvd her...no matter wat happened...and i
noe..that in luv...u hafta sacrifice .....and i sacrificed alot..... juz for her......
i know she did tell mi twice..she luvd mi.....but she never showed mi...whenever she met mi....
there was no warmth....
i tried to be perfect...
i tried to be sumone whom u can lean on to....
tried to your cryin shoulder...
tried to luv u dearly....
but you din see all those....coz in ur mind...there's still the image of someone who isn't me.....
NuZ
Thursday, August 04, 2005
am soo stupid.....she smsed mi on sundae..
askin if we wanna try and rebuild our relationship again...
n i was sooo stupid to answer i would luv to...
even tho she never replied when i told her tt i wan a commitment...
in e end..it was ok...but onli for a dae....
she was out again..yest...for a movie..wif sumone i dunno wat gender..
wat person tt she claimed to b a fren...
she din ans mi when i asked if her fren was a guy or gal...
i juz knew she watched a horror movie near my place!!
and i remembered her saying tt my place is quite far e last tyme i asked her,......
she onli told mi she went out when i asked her
why she was soo quiet
yest nite when i smsed her..
oopSsSs she did it again...
i m plain stupid!!!
IdIot!!!!
NuZ
